a girl with her head in the clouds

It's 5:16am and the sky is orange and pink and it's absolutely beautiful and amazing.

There's something comforting and reassuring in that.
It makes me really freaking happy.

"Who you are is who you spend time with, is who you become."
Well, something like that, anyway.

I think there's truth in it...

... july 1st.

what's with that?
seriously?

It's June 1st!!!?!?

How'd that happen?

i wonder if it's too late to decide to be an astronaut?

haha.


going into space would be super scary (thinking of potential for accidents) but oh so awesome.

le sigh.

Devouring Time, blunt thou the lion's paws,
And make the earth devour her own sweet brood;
Pluck the keen teeth from the fierce tiger's jaws,
And burn the long-liv'd Phoenix in her blood;
Make glad and sorry seasons as thou fleets,
And do whate'er thou wilt, swift-footed Time,
To the wide world and all her fading sweets;
But I forbid thee one more heinous crime:
O, carve not with the hours my love's fair brow,
Nor draw no lines there with thine antique pen!
Him in thy course untainted do allow
For beauty's pattern to succeeding men.
Yet do thy worst, old Time! Despite thy wrong
My love shall in my verse ever live young.

Have you ever been laughed at because of your small weener? Change that today, and gain tons of confidence!



...
hahaha!
sorry, i found above spam, which found its way into my inbox, to be pretty amusing.
so i had to share!
lol.

Love of mine
Someday you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light
Or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
And illuminate the "No"s
On their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In catholic school
As vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised
By a lady in black
And I held my tongue
As she told me, "Son,
Fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
And illuminate the "No"s
On their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me
Have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes
Are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
But it's nothing to cry about
Because we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
And illuminate the "No"s
On their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

sometimes i really really really really HATE that I have a uterus.

It's insane how much pain it can cause me.
I mean, we're talking wimpering, writhing, moaning, wanting to cry, curled-up-in-fetal-position pain.
pain that makes you feel like you want to throwing up.
pain that makes you unable to even stand up straight.


:(

... passed away yesterday. i believe it was from a drug overdose. in manhattan.


i was reading a bit about him today - his bio. some things he was quoted as saying.

this one is particularly interesting to me:
I'm not good at future planning. I don't plan at all. I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow. I don't have a day planner and I don't have a diary. I completely live in the now, not in the past, not in the future.


on one hand, i admire that kind of thinking. i suppose i even aspire to do so myself.
but on the other hand, i suppose the same kind of thinking can lead you to o.d'ing and poof, your dead.

huh.

... is one of my new heroes.
i've never seen anyone so graceful on ice.
and he's only 17. wow.


Mr. Buttle is pretty damn cool too.
But I think Chan is more graceful and fluid.

i have a new hoodie and i really like it :D

i have a ps2 handed down to me from my dad.

since my dvd player seems to conk out after about half an hour of playing or so, we've been using the ps2 to play dvds. however, there's a problem with this.

it seems there's a parental control password set up.
my dad swears he didn't set a password.
and we certainly didn't.

so, if a dvd is rated anything above PG, we can't play it.
which sucks.

does anyone have any ideas on how to bypass it or... something? anything???

help!

525,600 minutes
525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes
how do you measure, measure a year?

In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

In 525,600 minutes -
how do you measure a year in the life?

How about love?
How about love?
How about love?
Measure in love.
Seasons of love.


525,600 minutes!
525,000 journeys to plan.
525,600 minutes -
how can you measure the life of a woman or man?

In truths that she learned, or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned, or the way that she died.

It’s time now to sing out, tho the story never ends let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends.

Remember the love! Remember the love!
Remember the love!
Measure in love.

Seasons of love!
Seasons of love.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE AND ALL!



WITH LOVE,
girlintheclouds

xoxo
<3

*kiss*

so i know i am far from perfect - heck, we all are.
and i know i have my insecurities... but then again so do a lot of (if not all) people.

but anyway. i have been trying to constructively/positively and pro-actively confront some situations or incidences from my (mostly recent) past in hopes of becoming a better person, and in hopes of having a blank slate of sorts with my conscious and state of well being.

i don't want to name names, because it's not about blame anyway.
so far one incident seems to have been resolved, at least sort of anyway. the way i see it, the 'issue' was constructed out of both of our own insecurities. when the issue was discussed, via email, i came to discover that i my actions (or perhaps it would be more accurate to say the motive or driving factor behind my actions) had been misinterpreted and this misinterpretation was largely the source of the incident. but i've apologized for any role i played that contributed to this incident and i hope the other person involved trusts in my sincerity of the matter - but that, of course, is completely up to them.

so, with that incident addressed, i went on to another incident that has happened earlier this year. i emailed someone i hadn't spoken to in a while who i sort of had a falling-out with, in hopes of us starting a dialog about what had happened in hopes of resolving it and coming to a positive resolution and hopefully being on friendly terms again. however, this person hasn't replied at all, which leads me to think that they aren't interested in such. :sigh: although i am certainly not stuck on this assumption and would love to find evidence that such is not the case. maybe i just need to give it more time... perhaps i am too impatient.

it doesn't matter to me if i don't have a million things in common with people - i'd like to be on good terms with others - friends, acquaintances, whoever - and it doesn't matter to me that we may not even do things together very often, or whatever the case may be. i just honestly want to open my heart and mind, forgive (both myself and the other), discuss, and resolve (if possible)... and make way for more love rather than more insecurities and worry (despite how cheesy this probably sounds).

in terms of confidence and love and acceptance, i feel i am in a very good place right now. :) which is a good feeling.

(although in terms of self-body image, i am kind of in a pretty crappy place right now. i'm very frustrated at how much weight i've gained over the past year (the past two years really, but more so the past year). i need regular diet and exercise, but that is near impossible with my current job.)

anyway...

no matter who you are, i love you.
and i must remind myself, that includes me too. i should stop being frustrated with myself about my body-image and be more gentle and caring with myself.

i guess i'll make this a public post. why not?
i'm human trying to bring down my shield and shell. it seems a natural gesture.

i'd really like to mail out holiday cards to my friends this year.
it's something i always think of doing, but then usually get so busy and so caught up in last-minute stuff that i nearly-always forget to do so.

maybe this year i can be organized for a change!

if you would like to receive a card from me, please reply to this entry with your name and mailing address.

it's ok, your comments will be screened so that no one else can see your info except for me.

hope everyone's doin' ok!

love,
girlintheclouds
<3

now that the clocks have been moved back, it gets dark earlier. there's something i really love about that. possibly because i love the night time. and i also love how it's cold and dark outside, but warm and cozy inside. the contrast is just wonderful and i feel happy and excited and content.

:)


(not that i don't love summer and light and the warmth. but there's something about this season that i totally love.)

In some sense, everything that has ever happened to you reflects the collective results of an almost infinite series of choices. From the trivial to the crucial, your choices brought you to this moment. Recognizing that your choices matter gives you the opportunity to accept the situations you encounter and to decide the future you want.