a girl with her head in the clouds

I suddenly recalled a memory from my childhood around Christmas time, prompted by the words of "It came upon a midnight clear"...

I can't recall my exact age, but I think I was about eight.
My family had just parked outside of my Grandma's house, and we were getting presents and things from inside the car.

I remember: It was a cold cold night. The streets were silent, like the silence that comes during a light midnight snow fall - yet the sky was absolutely clear. I looked up into the black jewel laden sky and just stood there, mesmerized. I couldn't believe how silent and still everything was, and how brightly the stars shone against the black velvet backdrop. It was beautiful.

I was filled with so much awe and wonder. And for a moment, the bitter cold didn't seem as cold.

I was called to come into the house. I stared up at the sky a moment longer, not wanting to leave, before reluctantly going into the warm house filled with holiday cheer.

peanut butter and chocolate is tasty!

i feel happy!

i wanna put i'm my holiday tree, but i'm not sure the best place for it.
hmmmm.
ooh! i have an idea! i'm going to see if it'll work...

That time of year thou mayst in me behold
When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
Upon those boughs which shake against the cold,
Bare ruin'd choirs, where late the sweet birds sang.
In me thou seest the twilight of such day
As after sunset fadeth in the west,
Which by and by black night doth take away,
Death's second self, that seals up all in rest.
In me thou see'st the glowing of such fire
That on the ashes of his youth doth lie,
As the death-bed whereon it must expire
Consumed with that which it was nourish'd by.
This thou perceivest, which makes thy love more strong,
To love that well which thou must leave ere long.

... is just to love
and be loved in return.


this message has been brought to you by:
truth, beauty, freedom
but above all else...

love.

i walked around a fair bit tonight.

i simply love walking, especially by myself.
seriously.
it is so good for my soul... it energizes my spirit and i feel alive and joyful and happy and excited about life.

i am in perpetual amazement of the universe and what it means to be conscious and alive.

approximately 90% of the mass of the universe is accounted for by dark matter/energy, meaning the observable universe only accounts for 10% of this mass.

humans typically use approximately 10% of their brain, while the other 90% seems not to be used.

i wonder if, somehow, there's a link...

42 years ago today marks the date that Star Trek premiered.

wow.

It was beautiful outside today, blue blue skies with a strong warm summer's breeze.
It's nice to be back.

It feels like a new beginning.
the beginning of what exactly, I'm not yet quite sure.
But I know how I feel:

I feel confident.
I feel powerful.
I feel ambitious.
I feel excited.
I feel limitless.
I feel contemplative.
(very contemplative.)
I feel creative.
I feel strong.
I feel courageous.

I want to bring change into the world.
Not just my world - but other people's worlds.
We each live in our own little world.
And I want our worlds to collide.
I want to be that big splash that creates ripples and waves and affects so many.
I want to be that butterfly that has a great effect.

I am the butterfly.
Breaking out of my cocoon.

Just watch me fly.

i have a mission.
i've decided.

my 'purpose', if you will, will be to spread the notion, the concept, the idea (the truth?) that we are all One; that we are all connected to each other.

I'm not sure how many people actually think about this. I know I do a lot.
But if you believe in the Big Bang (and I don't see why you wouldn't) then you believe that everything existed in one infinitesimally small point - everything was one. matter and energy were one. then we became separate. but we are still all connected, and we are all part of the greater whole. together, we are one.

maybe the idea is trite? i dunno.
but i think it's an extremely important and invaluable message.
if people really saw all of us as one, then we'd have peace.
wouldn't we?
who in their right mind would war with their own bodies - cut of their toes and pluck out their own eyeballs, etc etc?

...

the search for truth.
the search for peace.
the search for one-ness.
the search for love.

I will aim to make all aspects of my life congruent with these endeavors... and I believe joy and happiness can be the only result.

:D

a little self-motivation:

i will aim to be more:
- courageous
- confident
- fearless
- trust-worthy
- caring
- dependable
- strong
- disciplined
- self-determinant
- independent
- inspirational
- outgoing
- active
- friendly
- persistent
- responsible
- healthy
- sociable
- happy
- loving
- free-spirited

It's 5:16am and the sky is orange and pink and it's absolutely beautiful and amazing.

There's something comforting and reassuring in that.
It makes me really freaking happy.

"Who you are is who you spend time with, is who you become."
Well, something like that, anyway.

I think there's truth in it...

... july 1st.

what's with that?
seriously?

It's June 1st!!!?!?

How'd that happen?

i wonder if it's too late to decide to be an astronaut?

haha.


going into space would be super scary (thinking of potential for accidents) but oh so awesome.

le sigh.

Devouring Time, blunt thou the lion's paws,
And make the earth devour her own sweet brood;
Pluck the keen teeth from the fierce tiger's jaws,
And burn the long-liv'd Phoenix in her blood;
Make glad and sorry seasons as thou fleets,
And do whate'er thou wilt, swift-footed Time,
To the wide world and all her fading sweets;
But I forbid thee one more heinous crime:
O, carve not with the hours my love's fair brow,
Nor draw no lines there with thine antique pen!
Him in thy course untainted do allow
For beauty's pattern to succeeding men.
Yet do thy worst, old Time! Despite thy wrong
My love shall in my verse ever live young.

Have you ever been laughed at because of your small weener? Change that today, and gain tons of confidence!



...
hahaha!
sorry, i found above spam, which found its way into my inbox, to be pretty amusing.
so i had to share!
lol.